Everybody's doing it!

Dang....my man is so sweet.

Who but Scribe would buy me a dozen of roses to hold up the rent money?

It's not as if he doesn't pay the rent every month....

But he really likes to do special things for me....

So Friday night when the twins and I got home....this is what greeted me when i walked through the door...

He is something else!...I love this man..I am so happy I didn't settle for the garbage...all those pieces of men I kept picking up or attracting....when I didn't settle for a nutcase? I got the best God had to offer me....

Thank God I sent all them other niggas...to the left! to the left!

And look at my girls...

Don't they look so happy...Tyrone (with his fat ass) is happy too !

Look at him laid out next to my lavender fur jacket...(Yes in NY it is fur season!) He's a mess!

Two of my friends got engaged recently...bloggers in fact!

CELENA IS BECOMING a WIFE!!!!

(that's not her intended in the photo...that's my girl's baby brother aka Milk and Cookies Diddy! Sorry girl...send me one of you and J)

Celena and J...two of my true friends in life...I really love these two!...Celena who is out going and is the only person other than Aliya...that I know is more boisterous than I am...J...quiet and humorous...He has always been the perfect gentleman...and never thought DJ Diva was too crazy to chat with...The way J loves her little one...helped me to see that a single, handsome man with a good job could in fact love a woman with a child...and accept that child as his own...and look what I did? I found me one too!....

Celena and J...no matter where Scribe and I are...we will defintely be at your nuptials...I'm happy for you girl...and you too bro....I guess one of yall read my plea....

But before J popped the big question...somebody else did too....


MR PO and Ms Just Write Now (SHARON)

Wow....they hooked back up this summer...not too long after Scribe and I...and after she went through her kidney donation to her brother....Mr. PO stood right by her side and asked my girl to be his wife...MRS PO....Girl I'm happy for you....After raising your child with such good morals and keeping high expectations for yourself...you got what you needed and more than you wanted....I wish you two nothing but the best! Can we come to the wedding?

Now what about Scribe and I you ask?

We gonna do it too. He hasn't popped the question yet...but it's a forgone conclusion that I will be Mrs. ScribeDiva.....We knew that 5 months ago when he dared to reveal he loved me. Every other day we talk about it or refer to some event that will take place after we're married....We have a date picked out...church...dinner...heck I have even chosen identical white and red dresses for me and the twins....

But I have no ring...so some people say:

"Well, don't say you're engaged"

"Don't say he's your fiance"

"Hold your horses anyhing could happen"

You know what I say?

"My ring is coming and it's not the most important thing in our lives right now."

Why?

We making moves....we have exactly 7 months before we leave NY to relocate for my teaching position. We won't know until mid-January exactly where we are going....but we have narrowed it down to ATL, MEM and Nashville.

Nashville?

Well it's close to my family in Memphis and housing and jobs are actually plentiful there (if anybody knows differently Holla!)

Butthe most important thing is that we need to save...so that means Scribe can't put as much on the ring as he would like to when he gets paid....and I understand that....because to me...I know it's gonna happen...I know what I will say when I am proposed to...I know what's gonna happen on May 5th, 2007 and I know that we will be leaving for our new lives shortly after that...

And because we need to save...I am giving up my car and going back to my long commute on the train and bus...who knows...it may help me trim down this fat ass my man seems to be so in love with...he should be in love with it...he made it! Scribe keeps cooking for us and bringing me cake and ice cream at night...then has the nerve to tell me to get rid off my stomach...after blowing me up from a sixe 6 to a size 12!!!!

I still look good though...my ass is crazy LMAO

(Daddy....don't worry about it please.....ok?..I see how much you want it...and I know it will happen...just know that it's ok with me...the fact that I know you want to marry me is enough...and means more than a ring!)

But when I do get one...yall will probably hear my squeals in every one of your respective houses!

Congradulations GIRLS!!!!! My man is determined to make me a MRS. too so I'm right behind yall!

I LOVE THIS MAN SCRIBE!

Say Word...#1

NEW YORK - Rapper Fabolous was shot early Tuesday as he stood at a Manhattan parking garage, spurring a sequence of events that left him both hospitalized in stable condition and under arrest, police said. The 28-year-old rapper, whose legal name is John Jackson, was shot once in the thigh when a male with a gun approached him and three others and opened fire, police spokesman Sgt. Mike Wysokowski said.The four jumped into a vehicle and fled, attracting the attention of police when they ran a red light. Officers stopped them and discovered two loaded guns in the vehicle, both of which were apparently unlicensed, Wysokowski said. All four men were arrested, and charges were pending.The rapper was taken to a hospital. Police were searching for the shooter.Police did not identify the three men arrested with the rapper, saying only that they are 18, 23 and 29 years old.The Brooklyn native's hits have included, "Breathe" and "Can't Deny It," and his songs cover topics ranging from romance to street life and violence. He recently took part in the taping of the VH1 Hip Hop Honors, which were to air Tuesday evening.An e-mail seeking comment from a representative at Def Jam Recordings was not immediately returned early Tuesday. The label is producing the rapper's upcoming solo album, due out in December, according to Fabolous' Web page on MySpace.com.


This negro got an album coming out or something?

Holla

Hodge Podge

Banging In

That's what us union members would call calling in sick when I worked for the Hotel Union. I did it today. Twins weren't feeling well ...and I wasn't either. I have talked about how this is busy season at my job. It's exhausting. I have worked overtime throughout the week...often don't eat lunch until 2 or 3 (I start at 8)...and it's a burger on the run...scarfing it down as I drive back to the job...to be there....for some really kooky individuals....I support a group of Macbeth's "Toil and Trouble" Ladies headed by a cool guy....During my "Go.a.l" session...I looked him in his face and told him if it weren't for him I wouldn't be there. Dang...I still can't believe I said that...but I try to tell the truth as often as possible....

Back that thang up!
After being in several accidents...coupled with the fact that when I was giving birth to the twins...the doctor broke the epidural needle in my spine....I ended up having a spinal tap where they took blood out of my arm and put it in my spine...as a result I have scar tissue in the area...the small of my back....

I have been through physical therapy...but I still have pain....I worked every day for the last 10 days...I guess I pushed myself until my body broke down....

I'm glad that it isn't that far until June...

Bring a child up in the way it should go...
I'm going back to church this weekend...convinced somewhat by a church member I saw at my hairdresser...I missed Annual Men's day this year because I was at work....but Annual Youth Day is coming up....the twins need to be a part of the ceremony....So I'll be going after work Saturday to take them to rehersal....they will be a part of the group saying bible verses from A-Z...and a part of the youth choir....I'll take my crocheting and knitting....I have some scarves and hats to make before the winter comes....

My Daddy

I still have the coolest, greatest boyfriend ever! I didn't jack his post today...That would have been a bit much....but he says such wonderful things about me...and our relationship.....my children.....and every word of it is true....As two individuals who have been on this earth for 33 years...we each have our own way of doing things...and breaking points....but we can communicate and compromise through it all....We fuss....but we agree on how to fuss...He takes great care of me and the children....all of us are so comfortable in the idea of "us" as a family....I don't what or who would ever break that apart....I really love that man Scribe...


Planes, Trains and Automobiles..
I had a huge period of anxiety when I heard about the plane crash down in the city yesterday....I just knew it was 9/11 all over again....I hate this neighborhood I live in....I can't wait for the day when I drive home from work up into my own driveway and the only noise I have to hear is my own children or husband's footsteps...the music blasting will be my own...No envious neighbors on my porch...watching my every move as I walk into my house...No bad ass kids congregating in the hallway because it's too cold to be outside...That's coming soon I know as the temperature drops...but I got something for them this year....

I might have to do as I was told and start taking the train again into work...the driving is getting to be too much and with bad weather coming I am dreading it even more....

I guess that's all for now...those of you who know a word of prayer...say one for me and my family....

Fuck Columbus

My top ten reasons for saying Fuck Columbus Day!

10. Fuck Columbus. I’m at work

I wasn’t really expecting to have the day off….but I know a lot of other companies do. I would bet money that more companies take off for Columbus Day than for Martin Luther the King Day. Scribe is off, Kids are their Grandma’s. And I’m at work and will probably be staying late due to busy tax season. This sucks.

9. Why should we celebrate some Italian who went to Spain to ask for an expedition to India because he was broke.

8. Why should I celebrate Columbus when all he did was get lost? Europe needed a new route to India after the fall of Constantinople to the Muslims in 1453. Forty years without silk and spices must have been hard.

7. Why should I celebrate when Columbus’ claim to fame…that he discovered a “new world”…is false….because people were here already?

6. Columbus was full of shit. This is what he had to say about the Taino Indians:
we might form great friendship, for I knew that they were a people who could be more easily freed and converted to our holy faith by love than by force, gave to some of them red caps, and glass beads to put round their necks, and many other things of little value, which gave them great pleasure, and made them so much our friends that it was a marvel to see. They afterwards came to the ship’s boats where we were, swimming and bringing us parrots, cotton threads in skeins, darts, and many other things; and we exchanged them for other things that we gave them, such as glass beads and small bells. In fine, they took all, and gave what they had with good will. It appeared to me to be a race of people very poor in everything.…They are very well made, with very handsome bodies, and very good countenances [features]. They neither carry nor know anything of arms, for I showed them swords and they took them by the blade and cut themselves through ignorance. They have no iron…I saw some with marks of wounds on their bodies, and I made signs to ask what it was, and they gave me to understand that people from other adjacent islands came with the intention of seizing them, and that they defended themselves. I believe, and still believe, that they come here from the mainland to take them prisoners. They should be good servants and intelligent, for I observe that they quickly took in what was said to them, and I believe that they would easily become Christians, as it appeared to me that they had no religion.''
—Christopher Columbus, Journal of His First Voyage, Markham, pp. 37-38


5.He used their loving nature and kindness against them. He ended up enslaving them. Didn’t take him long. He even kidnapped some of them on his first voyage. Apparently they did not go willingly…they went by force.

4. Columbus was the first white man (that I know of) to enslave anyone in North America. He wrote a letter to Queen Isabella and King Ferdinand, requesting that he be allowed to enslave the Caribs. These were the natives of West Indies. They were the most powerful of all of the tribes in the Caribbean…they are the namesakes of the term Caribbean because of their boating skills and mastery of war making. So Columbus didn’t want to enslave them because of them attacking other tribes. He was scared of what the Caribs were doing to his men he left to colonialize the place....and he wanted free labor...

Isabella said no. So Columbus seized 1600 of the kinder, gentler Arawak Indians and enslaved them.

Later, in 1503, Isabella reversed herself and said that only people who are better off under slavery (including cannibals) could be legally taken as slaves, which gave Spaniards an incentive to identify various Amerindian groups as cannibals, mainly targeting the warlike Caribs.

3. Columbus was particularly cruel slave master. During his third voyage he was arrested but released. A young priest was with him and kept a diary of Columbus’ atrocities. Bartolomé de Las Casas wrote of how Columbus would chop of hands of the Arawaks who could not find gold. Las Casas was the first advocate for the abolition of slavery against the Indians and he was the one who suggested that Africans be brought to work the sugar fields instead. Thanks!

2. Again I say…HE did not find shit. Most of you know…I like to study European colonialism. It was during this time that Caucasians began their dominance of the world. We are just watching the after effects 500 or so years later. So no parades for me.

1. Fuck Columbus. I gotta work.

North Korea Nuke Test

I said this on July 12th:

I'll Show You a Fourth Of July Rocket!

By now most of you have heard about North Korea's fireworks display/missile launch. All I was really concerned about was could they have hit America?... No? ...Oh well ..back to the BBQ....However, everybody in Asia is outraged and Japan is livid. Since WWII, Japan has been prevented from keeping a full size military army. What they do have is a self defense force of about 200,000 folks. The Japanese have been living peacefully (with us) since the last bomb dropped on Hiroshima...but with them North Koreans blasting off into the Sea of Japan everytime they want to flex a little muscle is a real problem to the Japanese. And we cannot forget that the North Koreans have nuclear technology. Or at least the folks in office don't want us to forget. On a serious note....a lot of countries have this technology now. Is it right for America to dictate who can have it and who can't? What gives America the right to decide for the world?


They have been testing missiles...now North Korea has conducted a successful nuclear test. They claim it is for self defense. They may be right. But who wants to attack them?

Wait. Bush still has 2 years left in office.

We in Iraq. No nuclear missiles. WTH is going on?

Rams and Twins

You guys haven’t heard from me in a long time. I guess I took a vacation. Or my life took over. I think it was the latter. Let’s see…40 hours + a week for work, 2 children in 3rd grade, a loving boyfriend. And 15 hours a week travel time. Yall ain’t the only folks that ain’t heard from me. I been incognegro with my family too. For good reason of course. With everything that’s going on with my life…now really isn’t the time to shoulder the burdens of others….or submit myself to abuse…

This is actually a busy season for me…see rich folks always extend their tax returns…so its time for them to pay the piper…makes sense don’t it? Hell, the IRS don’t pay you interest on your refund…why not make them wait for theirs?

Scribe and I are coming up on our 5th month….Yeah seems a bit longer….but everything I expected of him still remains true. I knew I had struck gold….Stay with me….

My retired (one of my best blog friends) girl Diggidity….asked me about signs…Why did she do that???? Somebody shoulda stopped her…Serenity???? Ladyleezie????

Nah.... Yall let her ask me about one of my favorite subjects…Astrology…and it’s cool cause I really want to talk about Scribe anyway …and this is the perfect opportunity to surprise him…since he’s doing all the laundry and I’m finished my indoor cleaning….waiting…LOL

Let’s begin…and by the way…I’d be happy to provide info…

She asked about a mating between a Gemini and an Aries…

Scribe is a Gemini….I’m an Aries….

Here are a few excerpts:

Both the Aries woman and the Gemini man experience physical bliss in this relationship and the Gemini man is quickly aroused if the Aries woman plays out some of her sexual fantasies. The Aries woman loves the Gemini man’s quick wit and restless spirit, but the Gemini man is not so fond of being dominated. The relationship between an Aries woman and a Gemini man can be incredibly stimulating for both of them, as long as they both give each other space.

They won't bore each other because both love to talk. (It's a close contest, but Gemini will probably win.) And they share a special compatibility, for Gemini is as restless and anxious to try new things as Aries is. There are no inhibitions on either side. Gemini is clever enough to counter Aries's need to dominate. Both minds mess well; Aries is dynamic and intelligent, Gemini is versatile and ingenious. Aries is likely to be the leader sexually, and Gemini delights in thinking up variations to keep Aries's interest at a peak. The signals are definitely a go.

Yeeah boyeee….. (flava flav)

A lot of what they speak of is about sex…and that’s no problem for me…

I love sex….Now….

I have had my ups and downs with it…been bored out of my mind with it…Last September as a matter of fact…But I have never hidden the fact that I am a very sexual person….

But I have my cycles…

I remember reading someone’s blog where she talked about her menstrual cycle and the havoc it played on her sex life…

Out of a typical month:

There is about a week and a half where I can’t get enough…Scribe can’t keep me off of him….I objectify him constantly during this time….It is during this 10 days where you’ll find him grinning from ear to ear everyday!

There is about a week and a half of “Ok, I want it”…So I will do it…yet I have to schedule it…maybe take a few days off in between…It is during this time that I am apt to put on lingerie….or light some candles…

Then there’s Hell Week. Poor Scribe may not even see me in underwear….I’m touchy, sensitive, scrutinizing, just a joy to be around (TIC)….

So the horoscope is great…and it applies…but there was no taking my emotional and hormonal side into that equation…

When I was single …I went through these moods by myself….or should I say with my children. I would alert them to times when Mommy was feeling particularly crabby. They would see me cry for no apparent reason once a month and wouldn’t think anything of it. I love to say how strong I am and how I can handle everything…but at least once a month during Hell Week I have a good cry…for no reason other than to let the snot drip from my nose and make my eyes swell up.

Now that I am in a relationship…the best one of my life in fact…I was scared to find out what would happen if he saw me change from week to week like some sort of crazy werewolf….We moved in pretty fast…and our 5th month anniversary is already upon us…

5 cycles…he’s been through my crazy cycles 5 times….

Does Scribe rant and rave about how crazy I am? Does he constantly ask me what my problem is? Does he flee the scene when I am being emotional?

No to all

See… being that he is a Gemini…(twins…dang what is it about me and twins?)....but since he has two personalities….and mood swings…he is perfectly well equipped to change with the week or day and provide me what I need. He knows when to back away because sometimes my Aries horns can be brutal…My blunt nature can be quite abrasive….He knows when to gather up the defeated Warrior Princess and rock her gently in his lap…He knows that sometimes…I don’t need a solution to my problem…I just want him to listen…

The Gemini and Aries match can be a very good one….If the parties involved are understanding.. I didn’t know that the first time I dealt with a Gemini….I was pretty evil to Mark #2….henceforth known as Bowling Boy….That man could cryyyyyyy…Lord have mercy…all of his clinginess irritated the shit out me…There was an incident where I was sitting in my room….listening with one of my twin brothers Feel…as this Negro called me 52 times in the space of 3 hours…even got his momma to call….simply because I chose not to see him that particular day!….But being a Gemini…he had his shit on the side too….I believe he ended up with a fat white chick….actually he’s the second one of my exes to do so….

But I say all that to say…I have to be understanding of my Gemini…I know he’s an undercover freak (Boy is he gonna kill me for that one)….He aint so undercover though…..He let that cat out the bag on the first night…Even though we didn’t have relations…he made sure to let me know why we should…and boy was he soooooo right. I never regret how fast we moved (are moving) and I have to agree with him that if we had done it on our first date…we would still be together…just like this…except he probably would have moved in a week sooner…

But I have to cater to the freak in him…and I have no problem with that….I mean I’m the one that should be doing it right? If you don’t believe that then you better go check your man’s phone, blackberry, pager …whatever…cause Shartiqua from down the block got your man’s freak monitor screaming! I have a pair of clear heels on his wish list and I plan to make that happen for him…

As you can see in both excerpts …it is apparent that I like to dominate. I have never hid the fact that I have a big personality…Aries is a born leader…Scribe, however, does not just “go along” with the program…OH NO!….It is real clear who the boss is…without yelling, screaming, or violence…Hell no…All he got to do is fuss a little in his own way? Boy my horns go down and I slink off feeling terrible about upsetting him…I have never had a man affect me that way…Usually I just stand there and go head to head…and toe to toe (even in my furs)…but with Scribe…Jesus…I don’t want to disappoint him in any way…Wow…That’s deep to me I guess…

I also have to understand that Scribe craves spontaneity…And this is what I have to work on the hardest….Having the twins and such a demanding job leaves little time for throwing caution to the wind and just bouncing….I wish I could…I certainly used to…but now I have to get a babysitter…see if I have to work…and if I do work…I’m usually exhausted…

But I have to suck it up (hehehe) because after this busy season is over…I’m going to do something really special for my man…he deserves it…he does so fucking much for me…and although he says I do just as much for him….I want to do more…

I can do for you what Martin did for the people
Ran by the men but the women keep the tempo
It's very seldom that you're blessed to find your equal
Still play my part and let you take the lead role
Believe me
I'll follow
this could be easy
I'll be the help whenever you need me
I see you hustle wit my hustle
I can keep you
Focused on your focus I can feed you- Upgrade You (Beyonce)

My plan for relocation is still chugging along…I can’t believe I have less than a year left…I work all these hours to save for that big house I want…I say I want …but who you think will be signing the deed with me? Yes…Mr. and Mrs. Scribe…Engagement day is fast approaching and I’m not nervous at all…Scribe is a wonderful man and honestly …all the other women who were in his life really need to seek therapy…If I lost him because of infidelity? All of yall need to come kick my ass….because it aint everyday that a real man walks into your life and wants to stay.

I probably rambled on and on in this post …about signs…periods, upgrading….

But it really is about how much I love HIM…because other than my children and work…he’s all I think about…when my mind needs a soft place to go…it turns to him….so forgive me if we are sweeter that freshly cut cane…That’s just who we are…it was already determined by the stars….